This week was so busy. I am writing this in the midst of my cleaning. But this week I saw a nutritionist! I was lucky enough to find one that was covered by my health insurance! Most of being healthy is eating healthy. In the average grocery store there close to 40,000 different products. Thats a lot of food. How are you supposed to know what is good for you? What are all those ingredients you can’t pronounce? Well that is what I aim to find out. I love to cook and I love to try new foods. It was not always that way. I used to stick to the same foods (mainly carbs) and never really any fruits or veggies. I mean, never really anything healthy.
Anyway, it was an assessment so nothing was really said or covered. She just wanted to get to know my eating habits and talk about my goals. My only goal is to be healthy. I love my curves. I do love my body. Weight loss is part of being healthy. But a number on the scale is not my goal. I want to be happier, have more energy, more confidence. A number on the scale, I found, sets me up for failure. I don’t want to be focused on that. I am a foodie through and through so my focus will be food. Eating the right kinds of foods. Creating a lifestyle that I can sustain and teach my children.
My nutritionist is also a personal trainer so I will be going to see her. I had a personal trainer previously that I loved, and I am sad to switch but I think it makes sense to have my nutrition and exercise monitored by the same person. Plus it is a little cheaper.
If you cannot afford these things, there are so many other resources on the internet that you can find. It takes some digging, but they are out there! Stay tuned for a follow up post on some good resources!
The first step in my journey is finding my inspiration. Well I found it and I didn’t have to look very far.
My inspiration is my boyfriend, Alex. He has no idea that I look up to him so much. He is an incredibly mentally (and physically) strong person. He is always striving to be stronger and better. He motivates me to be a better, stronger, unstoppable, person. He is constantly asking me, “Did you go to the gym today?” “Did you go for a run today?” When I say no, he reminds me how I used to run all the time. How investing in the gym is a waste of money if I am not going to actually go.
I fear falling short. I work so hard and get discouraged when I do not see the results that I am aiming for. I fear letting other people down. I fear letting myself down. I think to myself, “I might as well quit while I am ahead.”
Alex never hesitates to tell me how beautiful I am. He tells me this when I wake up and when I’m dolled up. The other day he said, “You’re perfect to me but if you are unhappy then change it.” In that moment it really dawned on me that no matter how perfect Alex thinks I am or how many likes my profile picture gets, happiness comes from within. So why do I always quit when I am doing so well?
I don’t exactly have the answer yet. Maybe I never will. Stay focused. Stay determined. The results will come. “Rome wasn’t built in a day.” Well, neither are healthy bodies.
A Little intro: My entire life I have struggled with my identity. I am Puerto Rican, adopted into a Caucasian family and grew up in Vermont. I have always struggled with embracing this unique situation and regularly put myself down for not meeting the status quo.
Food: food has always been an outlet. Sad, happy, or bored, I eat. I always find excuses for not being consistent. I am to busy with school. It’s period week. It’s the middle of the week. I am not seeing the results fast enough. Any excuse I find, I will use. Well not anymore. I am committed to change.
Reason: I am creating this blog to help inspire people and motivate people. I want to inspire people to dig deep, deeper than they have before. I want to motivate people to understand the value of their health. I am also creating this blog to help me stay motivated and hold myself accountable.
I am not selling anything. I am not a nutritionist. I am not a personal trainer. I am trying to figure out what works for me, and hopefully encouraging you to figure out what works for you.
Remember, this blog is positive reinforcement only. No negative comments. Lets lift each other up!
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